The Unthinkable - Chapter Thirty One

I start beating on the door as I fight with the door handle. "Let me out," I scream to the top of my lungs. 

"No one will hear you," a voice responds from behind me. Suddenly I feel this prickling fear run over me. I have heard that voice before. I take a deep breath as I slowly turn around to see the man that took me. I gasp as I freeze in the spot that I'm standing in. He's sitting across the room calmly in a chair. He has his hands clasped together as he rests his arms on his legs. He is wearing his hood with his head hanging down, making it impossible for me to see his face. 

I try to catch my breath as my thoughts run wild. I try to find my voice that is non-existent at this point. All I can do is walk in his direction with caution.

I take a few steps in his direction as I watch him closely. I get a few feet from him when he stands up, taking me by surprise. I stop dead in my tracks as he takes a step in my direction. We are almost face to face. I try to see his face, but his hood is in the way. "I'm not scared of you. If you want to kill me, then get on with it, I'm tired of all of these games." I shout at him, surprising myself at how brave I'm being or stupid.

He reaches up and removes his hood. I'm stunned, and for one moment in time................I'm devastated. Those beautiful eyes grab me. Then slams me into reality. Dimitri...He's a nightwalker. My heart falls as he regards me carefully. He says nothing. He stares at me with such intensity that it feels like he's looking straight into my soul.

"NO!" I cry. Tears fill my eyes as my heart breaks. I can't catch my breath. 

Stepping back, I stumble, trying to get away from him. "Your alive! No! You're a nightwalker!" I cry out. He makes no sudden moves as he watches me fall apart. I'm lost without any way of returning to reality. I can no longer grasp this sick reality called my life. 

I scoot until the wall stops me. I push myself as far as I can into the corner, wedged between the wall and the bookshelf. I pull myself into a tight ball. I'm all tensed and breathing heavy. Fear has gripped me and has taken me hostage. I can not move. "Just kill me, get it over with. Please release me from this pain," I cry out. Dimitri doesn't say anything, and his silence is my agony. I look up at him with tears in my eyes. Dimitri is watching me with a sad look on his face. I cry harder as I bury my face against my legs that I have pulled to my chest. 

"Emily, I'm not going to hurt you," he says in his normal voice. The whole time he has hidden his identity from me without giving himself away. I can no longer speak as I watch him stand up, offering me his hand. I can not will myself to take his hand no matter how much my heart is begging me. I close my eyes and hope that this whole situation will disappear. "Emily, I won't hurt you," he says as he keeps his hand held out to me. His expression is soft and welcoming. It pulls at me. I will my legs to move as I place my shaking hand into his. I jump as his skin makes contact with me. He's cool to the touch, which scares me.

I lock eyes with him. He's not giving anything away with his expression. I go to stand up and find that my knees buckle beneath me, sending me crashing toward the floor. 

I fall to my hands and knees onto the floor at his feet. I'm numb with fear and heartbreak. He kneels down in front of me. I'm hit with such emotions that I can feel my heart breaking all over again. Without thinking, I scramble to him and lay my head on his knee. He strokes my hair as I relish being close to him. I have missed him so much it's unbearable.

He gently kisses my hair as I choke back the tears.

He pulls me into his arms, resting my head on his chest. I'm lost in this moment. My world has come to a complete standstill.

He leans me back to where he can look at me. I can see the sadness in his eyes. Before I have time to react, his lips find mine, and we are kissing like our lives depended on it.

My whole world is in this moment: our kiss, our touch. My tongue brushes his fang, and it's like someone has just dumped a bucket of cold water on me. I'm hit with the realization. NIGHTWALKER! You're making out with a nightwalker! I jump up and step back from him.

In one swift movement, he grabs me and pulls me to him. 

I can't speak, I can't do anything but stare into his lovely face that now looks back at me with red eyes. 

"I saw you die, I saw your soul leave through your eyes." I sob.  

"You are the last voice I heard as I was departing this world. It was you that kept me in this world long enough for Hannah to bring me back," he tells me.   

I push at him to try to get myself away from him. I know I'm losing this battle. His lovely face, his eyes, his beautiful features are drawing me in for the kill. His voice moves over me like silk. I push again but in vain. His hold is tight and not moving. "Don't fight against me. Please, Emily. It's me." he begs.

I stop for a moment. I move my hand up and caress his face. He closes his eyes briefly.  "You look and sound like the Dimitri I once loved, but you are not. You are a nightwalker, cursed to walk this earth and destroy all that's good." I whisper as the reality sets in, I feel my heart sink as it starts to break all over again. "I can't." is all I can manage.

"Please don't! Please hear me out," he whispers. "I have searched for you for a long time. I feared you were dead. I was hoping that I found you first. How did you manage to hide so well up until now?" he asks. "It was Chris that saved me..........." I trail off.

 I feel the tears threatening me. I shove them back as I stare at him. He seems like Dimitri.............No stop! Don't think like that, I scream to myself. He died! This creature just looks like him. Smells like him. I grab my pounding heart as I try to reason with my racing mind.  

I finally manage to break free from his hold. I take a step back. "Emily," he says as his face shows the hurt. "No! I can't do this," I shout. "Why not? I love you. We were destined to be together." he says as I hear the door open.

I turn to see a young girl walk in. She's dressed really nice with brown hair. Then it hits me, she's a human. 

She walks over to Dimitri like she's comfortable with him. "Master, they know she's here," she says.

"I'll deal with them." he sighs. "Yes, sir," she replies.  

I dart toward the door while they are talking. I feel Dimitri's hands wrap around my arms. 

"Stop, you can't go," he shouts as he grips my arms tight.

One look into his face, I can see his heartbreaking, if he has one to break. Memories flood my mind of what we had, and I feel the tears start to run down my cheeks. I thought I had shoved all these emotions away, but find they are coming back with a vengeance.

Spinning me around to face him, I meet his angry face. He's no longer hurt, but angry. "You will be with me, you have no choice. Don't test my patience," he hisses through clenched teeth.  

"I'd rather die than be with a nightwalker that murdered my whole family and ruined my life. So just kill me," I shout. The tears keep running down my face as my world starts to spin out of control. "I didn't kill your family. It's me, Emily," he shouts.

"Master!" the girl calls out. Please forgive me for speaking out of turn. You have searched forever for her. Please don't do anything drastic," she says as she bows her head down, staring at the floor.  Then in an instant, he softens a little. His grip loosens, and he takes a deep breath.

"Jen, clean Miss Emily up. Get her looking normal, and fix this purple hair. I want her looking like she did when she was a princess. Do you understand?" he demands as he pulls me by the arm toward the girl. She nods her head.

He releases me, leaving me and Jen starring at each other as he leaves. I hear him lock the door from the outside. I'm left stunned and confused. I have this human standing in front of me while I'm sure I'm right in the middle of a nest of nightwalkers that could come through that door at any moment.

 "I'm sorry, but I have to do as I'm told," she tells me."So am I now going to be a slave to these nightwalkers like you?" I say.

"I don't find that I'm a slave, but I guess you could say that. Just do as your told and things should work out for you. Dimitri is a wonderful master. He's kind to me," she tells me. My heart sinks as the thought of Dimitri having a slave sinks in. My mind starts to wander............. I can't stop the horrible thoughts that cross my mind. Before I can help it, they are out of my mouth. "So, you do everything for him?" I question her with a look that I can only imagine points her in the direction that I'm thinking. She doesn't answer which tears at me. I lose it. I dart toward the doorway that leads to a bathroom.

Sinking to the floor, I find myself in a pit of despair again. I can't do this, this is way too much. I have learned to deal with my losses in time, but now one will be staring at me with red eyes.   

Waking up to a nightmare - Chapter Thirty

I wake up looking around in a panic. I sit up in a bed that is not my own, in a room that I don't recognize. There is no one in the room with me, and I have no idea how I ended up here. I try to remember the last thing that happened before I woke up here. 

I stand up in a panic as I run the images through my fuzzy head. 

Chris! The dark stranger! The blackout!  Then the sound of a door opening pulls me from my thoughts. I turn to see.....................

"Hannah!" I shout. 

It's such a shock that I step back into the nightstand and stumble to the floor. She stops at the end of the bed. She looks at me with her red eyes, but says nothing. "Stay away from me," I scream. I look everywhere to find an escape route but there is none to be found. I doubt that I will be able to get around her fast enough to get out of the door. 

She takes a step in my direction making me jump to my feet. I feel like a trapped animal. All I can do is back up until the wall stops me. My heart is racing and the images of her sinking her teeth into Dimitri replay in my head. I find myself scared and angry at the same time. She stops several feet from me. 

"Don't worry, I'm not going to hurt you," she says as she crosses her arms.

"Like I could trust anything you say," I hiss. 

"I'm sorry," she says. She's just deepens my wound she has created. 

"You're sorry! You actually have the nerve to say you're sorry after you betrayed us. You got everyone killed. You lead them straight to us. It was all your fault." I shout at her. 

She pauses, "you have no idea what I went through. So don't judge me before you hear what I have to say," she says. "Really!" I scream. 

"No, you listen! Mom, Dad, Dimitri, my best friend, and our guards are all dead because of you.You got everyone killed, and now they are going to kill me!" I scream as I point my finger at her. 

She hangs her head down."Yes, it was selfish. They tortured me and Luke. They drank from us every day. I was on the verge of death when they offered me a deal, a deal that saved me and Luke from death," she says in a small voice. 

"Stop! I can't hear any more. You are dead! Look at you, walking around pretending that you are alive and still a nice person. The moment you took that deal and became a nightwalker, you died. Nightwalkers have destroyed my whole entire life and you are part of it. I don't want to hear any more of your excuses. So if you think for one minute I'm going to forgive you, you're wrong. I will never get the images of you taking the one person I loved away from me. You killed him right in front of me. Do you know all their faces and screams I reply every night in my nightmares? I have never been the same since," I cry out. 

"I know their deaths are on my hands. I feel the guilt every day. I didn't realize the consequences the day I made that deal. I thought I could escape death and find a way to escape. I wasn't able to get away from them. They used the information I gave them before we could escape and warn you of their plans. As for Dimitri, I did you a favor," she tells me. "Did me a favor, you have got to kidding me. Have you lost your mind?" I shout as I take a step in her direction. "I can't disclose any information right now, but you will see what I did was for you," she says. I can't help it, I bust out with gut-wrenching laughter as I look at her. Once I come to my senses I get mad. "If you keep this attitude up, they will kill you," she says to me. 

"I would welcome death at this point. Since it all began my life has been nothing but a nightmare. So, tell them to bring it on, I'm ready for death, unlike you who thought of no one but yourself," I say with clenched teeth. "Have it your way then," she says. She leaves me standing there. I watch her leave the room as I try not to just scream. 

I run to the door after Hannah left. I can only hope she left it unlocked. I turn the knob and find that it's locked. I start beating on the door, "Let me out!"